New job...

i just started selling cards & stationary from this company.

come & have a look. if you like what you see you can buy from me on line.

busy busy busy

lots of twirling, a little sparkling & new beginnings....

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Excited...

I found this lovely purple A4 sized 2011 diary on sale for a few bucks.

My excitement reflects the magic that has begun because of this book?

Maybe...

i have been very stuck in 2011

creatively

personally

organisationally

until today

i have been clearing boxes, piles, drawers.

clearing clutter feels so good

one little bit at a time

i get distracted looking, reading, reminiscing, considering

all the papers, cards, letters, artwork

you know what i mean?

what does one do with the things that you want to keep?

how do you store it, display it, keep it?

well i am using this diary

not as a diary, but an excellent art journal

yay

i am inspired but web artists, love their inspirations & ideas

so am taking action and creating a document with

my art, feelings, collected bits, photos, notes and treasures

it is so lovely already

i can add to it whenever i like

it is not chronological

it has moved me to paint

my kids took an art class this holidays and i was inspired by the colour

so simple and combines many elements that i like

doing art with my kids over last few days has been

divine

i am an artist

i need to paint

regularly

it is so good for me

i highly recommend it....

do your self a favour and start one if you haven't for a while

these are ones i love.....

by keri smith

by journal girl

by amelia critchlow

by jen osborn

by quinn mcdonald

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How about a nature walk....

have you ever been out for a walk to discover.....

....something?

take a walk with me along side a meandering creek...

be open

awaken your senses...

what do you hear?

birds, water, children, the ground under foot...

what do you see?

many unusual fungi

a mini mushroom growing tall & strong in a fallen log

.... does a little fairy live here?....

a tiny world, unseen to us most of the time

until we stop and look, wonder & imagine....

sometimes i feel i have a heart of stone

but i know mostly it is super soft, fragile, vulnerable and resilient....

i didn't get a job that i really wanted last week.

it would have meant i got to create and work in an artistic way, every day.

i have been sad i didn't get it.

it feels like a lost opportunity...

i don't know whats up around the bend.

uncertainty feels tiring.

the path seems long...

no end in sight.

yet i am blessed

great love and support

assurances that something better must be around that corner

encouragement that this experience has been an door being opened

a new path

new possibilities

a new beginning...

beauty, strength & uniqueness is evident everywhere i look

looking inward it is reflected in me

the energy will come back

to move me forward

upward and onto the next possibility...

and we end up here

its been a nice winters day to take a walk

the powerful waters fall

reminding me its all temporary

everything is as it should be

there is always enough

i am enough

i will find what i am look for

the path is so worthwhile, for there is so much to know along the way...

where did your path take you today?

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me on my path...

A time to fly...

may we all transcend the cages we create for ourselves

illuminate the mind

take flight like the butterfly

let the spirit soar

be light

feel free

smell the flowers

this is it

the miracle

to be a beginner

start fresh

and fly...

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big day with a focus on the LIGHT...

So today was my 1st job interview since the late '90's.

that is now 2 decades ago!

even though it was 13years ago really.

it crosses over a millennia!!

i do love the sound of that.

but it does make it bigger in my head than it needs to be.

A stay at home mum returning to the workforce.

it went well. i'll keep you posted.

but seriously ladies, how do you do it?

at this point i am daunted by the new challenges.

organising a family with a new job.

"just breathe, and get the job 1st" i keep telling myself.

vulnerability is swirling around me, through me.

surrender is hard sit with.

so today i tried to focus on the light as much as possible.

this is what helped:

hubby's birthday last night

this image stayed in my minds eye

love sparklers, love the light

listened to this all day

gorgeous chakra-centred classical music

i received this lovely "simple mantra"pendant from liz lamoreux

when i saw the word LIGHT i knew it would keep me inspired

i wore it to the interview and felt lighter

i love it

i hope your day was light

may your vulnerability be a glorious cloak that you wear

tie it around your neck with strings of surrender

be brave dear girls

we light the way

no twirls today, feeling a bit dizzy from the newness of it all

sparkling with hope and courage

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and for the new year...

so much possibility and potential waiting on the other side of 12 o'clock.

what will 2011 hold instore for us all.

a clean slate.

infinite dreaming.

boundless love.

wonderous hope.

arms full of faith.

endless lessons.

gorgeous new depths within friendships.

continuous sparks of inspiration.

love,

always more love.

thank you 2010

for

all the joy,

triumphs,

lessons,

creation,

grief,

challenges

and

friends.

you were a good year.

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what is your word?

Letting go never ends...

today was the day. my baby, who is nearly five, was off to school. two years ago when my son started school i grieved openly. apart from the morning sessions at kindy he had only been cared for by me or a family member. so leaving him at school with strangers (well trained educators, but strangers to us) really challenged me. i cried and slowly we adjusted. at the time my hubby kindly reminded me to get prepared as in 2 years when my daughter starts i would need to go back to work. i totally freaked out. i had just pushed my 1st baby bird into the world to learn to fly without me and in the same breath i was expected to get ready for something i had no capacity to do.

now that time has come, the work is there with more options to come. however the focus for me is still on the children. my daughter has begun her journey into the world. she certainly has taken it in her stride and is braver than i had imagined. no tears today. i was braver too. the lesson for me is about letting go. opening my heart. embracing the excitement.

listening to her telling her grandmother on the phone all about the adventures and stories of her day at school was amazing. in one day this girl has grown up. a new independence, confidence and pride. tonight tucked up in bed she asked, "mum are you proud of me?" i said "YES very proud." she said "i am very proud of me too." with that she promptly fell asleep. a big day deserves big sleep.

this mummy is tired from processing the magnitude of how the world is changing for me and my family. the world has started spinning just a little bit faster. can you feel it? i was at a bit of a lose end, not knowing what to do with myself with this slice of space & time. isn't this what i have been waiting for, dreaming about? i purposefully didn't fill up my day, but i was a bit lost in the gap. another part of me is waiting to be created. new beginnings for us all, again.

may you wish upon something shiney & bright

and may your heart be strong enough for it to come true.

thats the thing about wishes, you have to let go, even if it is just to exhale...

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Harmony...

a new idea that has got me thinking.....

balance is attainable if you are working with a set of scales. i spend a fair bit of my day feeling out of balance and trying to balance different parts of my complexity & life. iv'e decided the attainment of balance is an urban myth, or balance is too elusive a creature for me. i'm done with balance. i'm sick of feeling less than because i can't balance stuff in my days.

i am replacing the insane pursuit of balance, the tiring practices, that don't work and i'm going to practice & spot HARMONY instead. tuning into whats going on, resonating not resisting, and flowing with the go.

the practice of intention, attention and no tension will raise my consciousness and relax the control freak part of myself. a bit of focus, work and play sounds like good harmony.

i think of harmony like singing in a choir, when everyone is singing their part, together it is beautiful and uplifting. when its not harmonious a choir can sound terrible, it doesn't work.

i can be the conductor of my life and all aspects are my personal choir. if i work with the the complex individual parts that make up my days and inspire & create i can get the best out of life. the senses are clearer about harmony than balance, how things sound, look, feel, smell etc....

new beginnings are fun. lets see where this path meanders....

la la la la la la laaaa

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i found my word.....

...receive...

i am going to allow, invite, accept and take in all that is given to me, by my family, friends, God, strangers, nature, miracles, magic, my parents, all children, and the infinite wisdom that seeps into my consciousness. my plan is to stop denying, rejecting and pushing away all this love and guidance. Sounds like a good plan, doesn't it. 17days to think of it, but worth the wait....

i am so inspired by this and this and this. these women consciously present their world view which has reached deeply into a quiet place in my heart. in reaction my soul is flooded with inspiration and creativity and i am growing....

i don't know these people and yet what they do helps me, i am changed because of what they blog about. it seems strange that they may never know that i grow because of their contributions to the web-ether. i thank them, and acknowledge that i receive their gifts with pleasure and gratitude.

i will use this space to keep track of all that i receive. i am excited to see what comes my way.

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2010...

Another new beginning....

As i approach my 40th year i feel a sense of preparation. I must be a grown up now.

some of my choices and my self perception seem adolescently unhelpful to my being able to live fully in my life.

do i have my shit together? Not really. Some days are better than others.

overall i believe i am holding ME back from living a joyfilled-alive-compassionate-loving-life that has a depth which excites me and propels me.

i want to uncover the junk i carry emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually. lighten my load by healing the tender spots and letting go of that which no longer works for me but against me.

so that i may play, dance and run open armed towards those i love. i find myself too often pushing away those i love. this makes be feel sad?

So I think i will be leaping into health-full-ness, conscious living, open-hearted, vulnerably-fragile discomfort, this year. i am nervous. but here i go.....

*twirl on

dream big.....

what is my biggest dream for myself?

what would it be in 1-3 words? kelly asks

but i don't know what my dreams are

i fill my life with business, i now think to avoid listening to the answer to this question

but what if i knew my dreams, what my future could be, what if i had the ablity to create all that my heart desires?

i know that mainly i do

look at my blessed life, so far i have created a wonderful life, with heaps of dreams come true

but what is missing?

a plan for me

who do i want to become now?

one small question and yet so many big ones to flow on from the contemplation

so 3 words.....

courage to plan

plan to create

commit to planning

write it down

next step challenges

healthy vital living

go for it

let go

surrender ... this is the one

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A new word game....

my friend Teena & I are going to play a game

a word game (inspired a bit by this one)

a word will be chosen each day for reflection and focus

our hope is it will inspire us, energise us, excite us, connect us and push us beyond the limitations of our present

Teena has chosen:

CLARITY

WOW

how excting.....

new beginnings, my favourite.

this is what i have discovered about clarity

1. it is hard to get

2. we must see things as they are not as we want them to be

3. the heart sees more clearly than our minds

4. to find clarity one must be still

5. clarity is about vision but one must use all their senses(including 6th) for the real deal

6. comparisons help to be able to see all the options. this link was interesting

7. always extend yourself for a clearer view

8. tidy up

9. music helps

like

clarity by john mayer

i can see clearly now by jimmy cliff

angel by sarah mclachlan

sober by p!nk

listen by beyonce

Wisdom is always helpful:

If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change. Buddha

We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are. Anais Nin

there is clarity in a sparkle, a twirl & you.

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