Be mine Valentine...

Dear YOU,

May you feel deep love,

not the Hallmark kind,

but the kind of love that moves you,

makes you blush while your heart beats a little bit faster,

that makes you want to take a chance,

be brave, challenge the conventional.

May the love you feel come from the inside,

from your divine self,

for your marvellous unique being.

No one has to give this kind of love to you.

It is already there. It is always there, waiting.

You are a child of the Universe,

whole, as you are,

complete in all the ordinary imperfections.

Embrace all of who you are, if only for this day.

Busy & crazy are always there, waiting too.

Leave them for another day.

Let gorgeous, glorious,

beautiful, blessed,

magical, spectacular,

special,

YOU

out for the day.

Maybe tomorrow,

and then next day,

if you like,

but practice just for today, at least.

You may not always feel loved,

seen, heard, but you are.

I see you, I hear you, I love you.

from the inside out....

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♥ Dana

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Space.....

how do you make a space fit where you're at?

i'm going through a growth spurt and i'm not fitting in to my old spaces. now this is all about physical spaces but from a metaphysical perspective....if you know what i mean? this is sometimes how i get, all in my head. i struggle, wiggle, and wrestle with my thoughts and self about, well just about everything. i feel like the chrysalis before it becomes the butterfly.....talk about transformation...

my dear friends have to listen to some out-there ramblings during these periods. this is how i tend to process new ideas, thoughts, concepts until i settle into the expanded refreshed order. the other thing i do is move furniture and alter space. now i love all of this. but when there is resistance i know that i'm dealing with big stuff, shifts of some magnitude and the sadness comes as i feel like i'm not going to get it, and will remain stuck, motionless and down.

i am uncomfortable in the middle of this process. its always going on, but the more learning i am doing the more my soul is asking me to grow. the small person in me who tends to stand with her feet in the snow, too cold to move from her spot is asserting her immature stance. i have willingness and i have blocks. now i just need to build that bridge and get over myself, one block at a time.

SARK advocates doing things in MICRO MOVEMENTS (5seconds to 5minutes) but the mess is too much. its taking too long. my family is disrupted. i'm a bit obsessed. i am accepting all of the less pleasant parts more. being kinder, practicing some love, and waiting for the full moon and the energy to change. sometimes this stuff is not personal but cosmically bigger than what i can know. so this is me sometimes: weird and wordy, stuck and scared, taking deep breaths.

finding a space in my house isn't going as well as i had planned in my head. nothing feels right. rearranging usually helps but i still feel limited and confined to what is already there and its not fitting right. i think the big thing is that its winter, grey & rainy. my house is brown, everywhere. i am not a grey or a brown kinda girl. i am a energised by bright colours. look at my paintings and there is not much grey or brown. i would like my house to be transformed into a greek villa in the whites and blues. that would make me happy. this is not to be for now. i will utilise the room i have, eventually.

i am blessed with a wonderful home, the ability to dream, paint and create. i choose love to; build bridges with, play with blocks, dance like a chrysalis, fly like a butterfly and soar with my heart.

may i find peace in my walls, lightness in the tasks ahead, and abundance in the splashes of paint.

thanks for being part of my processing,

spinning & twirling.....

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Life is funny like that.....

Ever laughed after being freaked out at how things work out? life has this funny way of twisting and turning out just how you never dared to dream it would. so i did the SARK e-course, a big decision, a big outlay. yet worth everything that i received. and the best things were the little surprises not on the itinerary: a connection to a creative community of dreamers, a new friendship which was launched while setting sail from unchartered vulnerabilities, hope, a hunger to paint, less fear to put myself, my art & my perspective out into the world.

my new friend sent me a link to Self Love Studio . i checked it out. it was free and is really good. i loved the interviews. i started doing the things suggested and i feel a freshness. it may just be the beetroot carrot and apple juice i've fallen in love with.
i started thinking about my body as a temple. the last 20years i have not been that good to my temple. and as i go into my 40th decade i would like my temple to see me through another 40. as come to the end of this inspiring path, i feel sad, where will the next spark spring from. i would like to say from with in, but i am not there, yet.
so i explore Christine's site and discover A Madly In Love With Me Kit. Again its free. I am thinking who is this person who is creating these free tools and resources for women just like me. i felt moved to write to thank her for her generosity and spirit. she wrote back to me straight away thanking me for my affirmations. so nice.
But it is me who is so grateful to have found a way to move toward my healthiest, strongest, loving and kindest self. In taking a Summer Retreat (in the middle of winter), from the comfort of my own house i know that i am blessed and on my way.

do you ever feel like you may not be able to hold in your heart or both arms the abundance of the Universe? so i want you to know i do, i do, i do believe in serendipity, fairies, synchronicity, prayers,angels, faith, love and a Universal Wise One. i just have to be open, vulnerable, brave enough to receive all that is out there for me.
i'll be doing some sparkling & twirling round here....

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